And I was saying say to myself , fiercely , hissing hiss it between my teeth , as they say in novels -- and really clenching clench them together : I was saying say to myself : ' Now , I 'm in for it and I 'll really have a good time for once in my life -- for once in my life ! '

He rammed ram his large red fists into his pockets , he jerked jerk them out , he resolutely got rid rid of them by clenching clench his hands behind him , and he stammered stammer : “ I know .